Taffy's Personal Touch on Life

taffyethel

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Whys?

Aug 7, '08 11:50 AM
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I wish I don't have to write about myself all the time and lament on like it's the end of the world.lol. well it seems like I only turn to blogging when I am in deep contemplative mode. Blurh.It's probably the sentiments. Yes, I think it is. 90% of it.Emotions are a great deal to me. I treat them seriously. I always tell myself over and over again. Live life courageously. I hope I am not talking to the wall:P I am like a person hybernating and yet has not achieved enough rest, a person writing and yet has not given her best, but why should I ponder on this, silly me. Maybe I should cut myself some slack by learning to love myself a little better every day. It is not easy to be loved by others lol, and we can only be kind to ourselves by loving ourselves completely without judgement, so that we can pick ourselves up whenever there's that pitstop, that roadblock, that gorge..
I realize I don't speak my mind, most of the time. My mind is a working silence. It tells me things I see everyday that I translate into memories. I try to go about everyday finding something new to hold on to. So that my faith does not waver. So that I do not entertain my doubts.

I draw a line sometimes when I want to feel safe, protected, because fear can only turn you into a monster. Sadness can sometimes consume you too, if not cautious enough. So who do I want to be? Me?

Sometimes, I am not so sure.

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taffyethel wrote on Aug 7, '08

I think I rely too much on acceptance. In that way, I am not independent. I would give anything to be a sturdy rock in the world. Independent, strong and uncontested lol.

sophiangiaw wrote on Aug 9, '08

Hey those are normal. A simple message for you:
"During painful times, when you feel a terrible void, think how God is enlarging the capacity of your soul so that it can receive him — making it, as it were, infinite as he is infinite.

St. Elizabeth of the Trinity"

Haha I "moved" to http://sophia-revived.blogspot.com

taffyethel wrote on Aug 15, '08

Thanks Sophia for making my day. How sweet of you. Will check out your new 'house':) lol

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